I hit the gym almost everyday and planned to kill this thing before it killed me. Thomas William Greig
Dark days can happen!! I moved back up north in 2016 for a year, with the intention of doing something for myself. I was sick of working for people who didn’t give a care about you. 5 years working for Gordon Ramsay had taught me to be bashed and be bullied and be ridiculed for doing the slightest thing wrong. And little did I know, that I needed backing and money and lots of other shit to make it anywhere. It was the worst year of my life, I’d had 3 jobs and each one was worse than the other. I had lost my light hearted attitude and was spiralling towards darkness. My thoughts weren’t my own and knew I had to do something about it.
I hit the gym almost everyday and planned to kill this thing before it killed me. I had a tattoo of a Phoenix at the end of it to remind myself that I can overcome this, (my rise from the ashes) that things are better on the other side. I moved back to London as soon as I could, and from there things just got better. I belonged in a real kitchen, but I needed to be away from toxic environments and bullies. I eventually landed my first head chef job, and from there on I’ve tried to create a nourishing, caring environment where anyone can be what they want.
If somebody fucks up, I don’t holler and scream at them, I take them aside as not to embarrass them and be as professional as I can be. It’s made me a better person, and also has made my chefs want to come and work with me wherever I go. Let’s stop this bullying, in a time when we need chefs to stay in the Industry more than ever.
Cut to a few months before this bizarre COVID shit and you can see my smile says it all. Let’s kill this stigma and talk about mental health. I was too afraid to talk to anyone about it, but you shouldn’t have to live in the darkness by yourself. I found my light and you will too, just remember that #itsoktonotbeok and to this day if ever I have bad days I take a glance at my arm and what I’ve accomplished and remember that things can be better.